Losing Myself in Trying to Date

Here is my end of the year review for 2019 for dating. I have gone out with over 20 guys, about 12 or 13 just this year. I am still single. It is so hard when I really want to be married but nothing ever works out. It's bad first dates, rejection, or guys who end up not having feelings for me or liking other girls. The guy this past Friday talked about being exclusive with me while also saying there was another girl he wanted to go out with! I called him out on his crap. I have rejected nice guys too. I am hoping I am learning more about myself and what I want. I hope 2020 is better in that regard.